life becomes that much more complex when you are someone's crutch
you lose a vast amount of selfishness in which you therefore gain in humility and appreciation for life
you carry them on your shoulders, buck your knees, and walk for bare life
walk for those who cant get up
run for those who have no ambition
stand up for those who are mute with despair
and strive for those who are unaccomplished
i appreciate those who overlook my flaw, embrace my strengths, and excepts all that i am and aspire to be
i know that my current situations will convert in producing my character but first i must die to what i was to be reborn into everything i hope for
6.2.08
new ports,depression, alcohol bitches
Monday, February 2, 2009
Saturday, December 20, 2008
feels like dying
everyday feels like dying
im crying on the inside
i cant speak my pain
i've adapted to denying
my fears and curses
are made alive
everynight i hope to die
goes from bad to worst
i dread waking up
my life smells foul
and my only movement
is in a bowel
wipe my ass with a towel
dont like it pick a vowel
cuz one day it might just be
a.e.i.o. YOU!
im crying on the inside
i cant speak my pain
i've adapted to denying
my fears and curses
are made alive
everynight i hope to die
goes from bad to worst
i dread waking up
my life smells foul
and my only movement
is in a bowel
wipe my ass with a towel
dont like it pick a vowel
cuz one day it might just be
a.e.i.o. YOU!
Friday, December 12, 2008
saisons de le vie
my coldest winter was in 03
u left me a bastard child
now i stand in the elements
bare breasted
and without a soul
a vacant heart
that refuse to be occupied
lost friendship that
probably were never mine
im engaged to misery
im going to marry my doom
my once in a lifetime
came and left too soon
in spring, my flowers
wont nourish or grow
summer,i wish you never
existed
and in fall i gather my acorns
because i know another
cold winter is to come
12.12.08
u left me a bastard child
now i stand in the elements
bare breasted
and without a soul
a vacant heart
that refuse to be occupied
lost friendship that
probably were never mine
im engaged to misery
im going to marry my doom
my once in a lifetime
came and left too soon
in spring, my flowers
wont nourish or grow
summer,i wish you never
existed
and in fall i gather my acorns
because i know another
cold winter is to come
12.12.08
body bag me!
To make a long story short, HUGE cut on my face, argument, silly me!
happy fucking thanksgiving everyone!
leaches sucking at my brain
insane convulsion
dont allow me oxygen
unplug the life support
bypass me
then body bag me
die!
11.21.08
happy fucking thanksgiving everyone!
leaches sucking at my brain
insane convulsion
dont allow me oxygen
unplug the life support
bypass me
then body bag me
die!
11.21.08
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
roar!
conversations with you are in vain
unsatisfying kisses
my heart roars like a protective lion,
step away from my queens
because he knows what my eyes cant see
the sunset were beautiful but the midnight air were strangely cool
you secured me to climb the latter than let me fall
now i cant forget
11.18.08
unsatisfying kisses
my heart roars like a protective lion,
step away from my queens
because he knows what my eyes cant see
the sunset were beautiful but the midnight air were strangely cool
you secured me to climb the latter than let me fall
now i cant forget
11.18.08
lukewarm
drenched in this inconsolable sorrow
my soul cries but my eyes wont shed tears
feels like my inside are vomiting
eyesight are blurred ,im in a daze
i never felt so numb, so unfulfilled
and nothing taste more sour than
this bitterness
im feasting in this lukewarm
emptiness
parched paths has lead me to astray but
the strange part is that i thirst not
11/18/08
my soul cries but my eyes wont shed tears
feels like my inside are vomiting
eyesight are blurred ,im in a daze
i never felt so numb, so unfulfilled
and nothing taste more sour than
this bitterness
im feasting in this lukewarm
emptiness
parched paths has lead me to astray but
the strange part is that i thirst not
11/18/08
Saturday, October 11, 2008
from mercy to union sq
So i spent the day with bestie loaded with walkin,gluttony,thrifting,more walking,laughter,and arguing
We started off in union sq walked to l.e.s went to this stink ass thrift and on they way we argued cuz sum dumbass 1$ used books lol anyways bestie wanted to get this nice top for $10 but she didnt get it than she regretted it cuz she saw the same fuckin top for almost $50 in uban outfitter<----overrated
So watever we ate pizza @ dis bootleg pizza shop in l.e.s. kinda nasty so we just decided to go to billyburg to eat again cuz they have way better pizza...we were sum fat ass pigs yesterday but hey we needed energy from the marathon we walked
We got lost lookin for the j train than my metro card didnt fuckin work sumhow i was pissed so i just snuck my fatass in threw the door
Anyways the end im tired of writing
We started off in union sq walked to l.e.s went to this stink ass thrift and on they way we argued cuz sum dumbass 1$ used books lol anyways bestie wanted to get this nice top for $10 but she didnt get it than she regretted it cuz she saw the same fuckin top for almost $50 in uban outfitter<----overrated
So watever we ate pizza @ dis bootleg pizza shop in l.e.s. kinda nasty so we just decided to go to billyburg to eat again cuz they have way better pizza...we were sum fat ass pigs yesterday but hey we needed energy from the marathon we walked
We got lost lookin for the j train than my metro card didnt fuckin work sumhow i was pissed so i just snuck my fatass in threw the door
Anyways the end im tired of writing
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